"I MUST SAY!"

Well, hello. Peace, joy and love to you. It's been since March of 2013 since I last posted. I purposely did not read my past posts so that I wouldn't be influenced by them. But today I am drawn to write. I think partly because of the current government state, but also my own personal state. Here goes...

What I am is a person who likes structure and good order. I learned that as a child growing up in the home of a military father. He passively led us into good order by making it seem like any task was for the good of the cause. Like doing the dishes or weeding the garden. If you don't do it now, then tomorrow there will be more dishes to do or there will be more weeds to pull....the grass will still be there but only longer if you don't mow it...etc. Passing the chore on to the other siblings wasn't an option because they had their own work to do. So responsibility was big in my house. Do it. Just do it. Don't complain, don't put it off, just do it.

As a child the "just do it" philosophy was easy because there would be a consequence at the end if the job wasn't done. As an adult, however it's more difficult. WHY? My dad is gone to live with Jesus and my mom who was the enforcer is also there with him. I'm on my own....my own accord....my own thoughts and my own excuses. My tasks have changed now that I'm an adult. I'm no longer talking about the chore type tasks...those I have a handle on...but the task of making decisions that will effect my life. That's it.

I'm in discernment. I'm in decision making mode. I absolutely know and accept that God is in charge. But me, as a preparer and plan B'er to cover all the bases person, I have to explore all the options. Here we go...I realize as a Christ follower and Child of God that no matter how much I prepare and no matter how much I explore my options, God is in charge. I also know through many experiences that God has a sense of humor and isn't afraid to use it on me. LOL!

So there. I just talked myself into letting go. Let Go and Let God!

Pray for me bloggers. Pray that when God speaks, I am ready to listen and accept.
And I will pray for you.