Thursday, November 16, 2017


I'm waiting the day before....

It can be difficult. I'm waiting to hear some news that will catapult me into the next phase of my life.
I am waiting to hear about a job that will cause me to make a move to a new town. Currently I am in a temporary state, not in a home of my own. But, still welcome, and with family.

I am so very blessed to be in the place I am. No complaints. Just waiting to hear.

It sounds selfish I guess. There  are so many people who don't have a warm and dry place to do their waiting. I'm blessed yes I am.

Jeremiah 29:11
'For I know the plans that I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.
Praise God in all that I do, say and think.
Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul and strength.
Lord, make me a worthy candidate for this call to serve You.

Friday, November 3, 2017

Make it Easy!

I'm sitting at Starbucks and listening to the lyrics of a song :
"Don't let the sound of your own wheels drive you crazy".
I'm not particularly fond of the other lyrics to this song but this phrase just caught my ear.

Lyricists are amazing communicators.
It's very difficult I'm sure to open your heart up so everyone on the planet can look inside you and know what you are feeling at the time you are writing the song.

I've heard that the Bee Gees write the music to a song first and then let the music dictate the lyrics. It just comes to them because of the way the melody moves. That has always fascinated me.

I'm going to try many times have I said that?
I'm a church musician so it should be easy...right? I sing and play worship songs.
Glory to God. Praise and worship Him. Jesus saves. I love the Lord with all my heart.

If I were to write a song I would try this method:

Pray to God that He speaks to me in this moment
Open the Good book (bible)
Read the Word and know what it means
Say or sing it in a rythm
Re-write and Re-word
Let it settle
Record it

Make it Easy!

I'll let you know how it turns out......... :)

Tuesday, October 3, 2017


Let's just say that God is good all the time.

Because I believe that to be true with all my heart, I constantly look to find the words to comfort my friends, family, strangers or anyone who has lost a child.

In my own life, no matter how tough it gets I am able to make sense of the way God is working for my good. It's not always happy circumstances and is sometimes hard to swallow, but still I've reached a point in my Christian maturity to know that He has a plan for my good. The Light (Jesus) at the end of the tunnel is eternal life with Him, my family in Him and joy everlasting. But how to put that into words for immediate comfort to someone who has lost a child I don't know. Maybe it's ok to be silent. Maybe I have to allow silence in Him to do the work. It's always the wise one in the room who sits in silence.

Wisdom isn't for us to have. Wisdom is for us to use. It is a gift that God displays through us.
If I'm so lucky to have it, I am humbled and wish to use it wisely.

Here we will sit in silence to appreciate God's glory in all that is, even the children who have gone early to see Him.

Wednesday, November 16, 2016


Well, hello. Peace, joy and love to you. It's been since March of 2013 since I last posted. I purposely did not read my past posts so that I wouldn't be influenced by them. But today I am drawn to write. I think partly because of the current government state, but also my own personal state. Here goes...

What I am is a person who likes structure and good order. I learned that as a child growing up in the home of a military father. He passively led us into good order by making it seem like any task was for the good of the cause. Like doing the dishes or weeding the garden. If you don't do it now, then tomorrow there will be more dishes to do or there will be more weeds to pull....the grass will still be there but only longer if you don't mow it...etc. Passing the chore on to the other siblings wasn't an option because they had their own work to do. So responsibility was big in my house. Do it. Just do it. Don't complain, don't put it off, just do it.

As a child the "just do it" philosophy was easy because there would be a consequence at the end if the job wasn't done. As an adult, however it's more difficult. WHY? My dad is gone to live with Jesus and my mom who was the enforcer is also there with him. I'm on my own own thoughts and my own excuses. My tasks have changed now that I'm an adult. I'm no longer talking about the chore type tasks...those I have a handle on...but the task of making decisions that will effect my life. That's it.

I'm in discernment. I'm in decision making mode. I absolutely know and accept that God is in charge. But me, as a preparer and plan B'er to cover all the bases person, I have to explore all the options. Here we go...I realize as a Christ follower and Child of God that no matter how much I prepare and no matter how much I explore my options, God is in charge. I also know through many experiences that God has a sense of humor and isn't afraid to use it on me. LOL!

So there. I just talked myself into letting go. Let Go and Let God!

Pray for me bloggers. Pray that when God speaks, I am ready to listen and accept.
And I will pray for you.

Thursday, January 2, 2014

Here I Am

Here I am.
I knew I would be here. This is where I would find myself.
I knew it a long, long time ago. And yet, I just found out.
This is where I should be. Meant to be. Will be.
I am here.
Here I am.

Saturday, March 9, 2013

I See Squirrels!

I need squirrels!

This morning for example:

Coffee... eggs... news... desk... computer... facebook... e-mail... open blinds...


He/she scurried over the top of neighboring fences as if there were no balancing act to perform... no worries or cares... only one thing to accomplish:

Get the Nut and Scurry back.

My walls of solitude are necessary, yet sometimes stifling  to achieve the creative outcomes for my job. Balancing the cultivated craft with productiveness takes fine tuning and can be at times inactive.

I'm choosing to
Be Distracted!

I See Squirrels! 

bustledart, dashdustflyhastenhop along, hurryraceriprunrushscamper, scoot, scud, scutter, scuttle, shootskim, sprint, step along, tearwhirlwhisk, zip

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

You Don't Define ME

Everyday I say out loud to the world ... "You Don't Define Me"...
"I Define Me".

It's a reminder to myself that my reaction to people in this world is my own choosing. My choices are mine.

It helps me to not be codependent. It helps remind me of who I am. It helps me be strong for my kids. It helps me to be a better follower of Christ,  knowing that Jesus is my Savior.

HE defines me. He makes me strong. HE helps me when I'm troubled. HE is my Refuge and my Strength.

I am nothing without HIM.

Go into all the world. Be disciples. Be strong. Be DEFINED.